|The Non-Smoking Update
||[Aug. 25th, 2010|03:50 pm]
International Bon Vivant and Raconteur
With all this extra time and energy I have now that I've stopped smoking, I've been working out every day with free weights. It's been great, and it feels wonderful to get some exercise for a change...but I've never felt weaker. My muscles are trashed from the exertion and will continue to be until they get more used to the regimen. In the meantime, trying to lift my arms to shampoo my hair after working out is an exercise in hilarity. Painful, painful hilarity.|
But in all honesty, I've never felt better. It's funny, back when I was smoking I was terrified of stopping. It wasn't just that I thought I couldn't do it; I thought nothing could possibly be as enjoyable without it. But that's smoking's biggest lie. As soon as you stop, you realize everything is actually better because you're not a slave to the drug anymore. You have complete control over your life again. And that feels just as good as not spiraling into random coughing fits anymore.
Of course, I do find myself having to relearn how to function like a normal human being. I'm relearning how to walk down the street without a cigarette. How to enjoy a meal without a cigarette afterward. How to get work done without keeping one eye on the clock so I can take a smoke break every hour. How to go to bed at night without having that one last cigarette of the day. Heck, I never realized how much I was using cigarettes to kill time when I was bored, too!
So this is me saying it's going well. I wouldn't say it's easy, but it hasn't been nearly as hard to quit as I thought it would be. I've definitely got a better handle on it than the last time I tried. I'm not even over-snacking! Actually wanting to quit is a big help, as is the support of my loved ones, and the constant, positive reinforcement of Allen Carr's book The Easy Way To Stop Smoking, which I highly recommend to anyone out there who is looking to stop.
It also helps a lot to know I've got you folks out there rooting for me, and I thank you for that.